?Jay-Z’s New Album Reveals VERY Intimate Details About Whether He Cheated On Beyonce

Among other things, Jay-Z seemingly admits to cheating on his wife, and talks about how ashamed he is of it. “And if my children knew, I don’t even know what I would do / If they ain’t look at me the same, I would prolly die with all the shame / You did what with who? What good is a ménage à trois when you have a soulmate, you risked that for Blue?” he says in one song.

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“My wife in the crib feeding my kids liquid gold, we in a whole different mode,” he says in the song “Family Feud,” which Beyonce makes an appearance on. And, yup, the “Becky” who is called out as the other woman in their relationship on Lemonade’s “Sorry” also makes a cameo here. “I’ll (expletive) up a good thing if you let me / Let me alone, Becky! / A man who don’t take care of his family can’t be rich / I watched Godfather, I missed that whole (expletive),” he says. “Nobody wins when the family lose.”

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The song “4:44,” which Jay-Z told iHeartRadio, per E! that he thinks is “one of the best songs I’ve ever written,” is also revealing. “I suck at love, I think I need a do-over / I will be emotionally available if I invited you over / I stew over what if you over my s–t?” he says in it. It also mentions Beyonce’s alleged miscarriages and the birth of their twins. “I apologize, often womanize / Took for my child to be born / See through a woman’s eyes / Took for these natural twins to believe in miracles / Took me too long for this song / I don’t deserve you,” he says. “So I apologize / I’ve seen the innocence / Leave your eyes / I still mourn this death. I apologize for all the stillborns / ‘Cuz I wasn’t pressing / Your body wouldn’t accept it.”

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He even referenced his famous elevator run-in with Beyonce’s sister, Solange Knowles, on the album’s first track, “Kill Jay Z,” seemingly talking to himself. “You egged Solange on, knowin’ all along all you had to say you was wrong / You almost went Eric Benét, let the baddest girl in the world get away / I didn’t even know what else to say. Never go Eric Benét / I don’t even know what you woulda done,” he says. He also references his daughter and how she might be impacted by his actions. “But you gotta do better, boy, you owe it to Blue / You had no father, you had the armor / But you got a daughter, gotta get softer.”

Per Time, Jay’s references to Eric Benét appear to allude to Halle Berry’s ex-husband, who admitted to cheating on the actress. Eric responded by giving a shoutout to his current wife, Manuela Testolini, in a tweet directed at Jay-Z. 

Hey yo #Jayz! Just so ya know, I got the baddest girl in the world as my wife….like right now! ?

— Eric Benét (@ebenet) June 30, 2017

Wow.

Jay-Z’s new album is available for free via iHeartRadio for its first 24 hours before going back behind TIDAL’s paywall.