HMN 2025: Independence after psychosis |

On the 33rd birthday, it was too difficult to read again in a mental ward and live with my parents. When I was 33 years old, I lived my own life and thought it would be established and self -sufficient. I moved with my parents without a job or penny. I didn’t know I would live myself again. I didn’t know if I would work again. I was very ambitious and studied for a doctorate. But my academic career would have been destroyed. I felt as if I started at Ground Zero and I worked so hard because I was not independent. I judged myself even if it was not my fault. I was lucky to be alive and safe, but I didn’t feel that way.

What I had to do at that time was to see what independence means. Independence can be measured purely by external markers who do not need the help of finance, housing, employment, relationships and parents. But as I have, people with chronic disorders with cognitive impairment require a reevaluation of justice. People still have a great and satisfactory life that can achieve independence, whether they depend on others. A person can be an adult and still needs a family support temporarily or in the long run.

I get a job, get a career, go out of the house, get married, and become a parent, but I don’t mark where independence is established. External markers or milestones may or may not occur or occur depending on the more important internal choices and perspectives. Such personal decisions are more important than potential material results such as career, housing and relationships.

Personal way of thinking

Those who recover from such a disease will want to financially support themselves and to fulfill the space with their parents. This man will also want to have his own house. But independence is actually about the way of thinking. Instead, we are a certain age and judges ourselves for not where we are. Estimated It is in life.

I had to tell myself: My parents support me because I chose or failed to play my role. Because I have survived a big fatal mental illness. I am doing my best to take care of myself and take responsibility for additional responsibility if possible. I am doing my best to contribute and participate based on what I can do now. I am proud of who I am and I’m entirely responsible for what I can do right now. I appreciate my support and want to return it in any way as possible.

Set goal

It took at least 10 months to consider a new job, but it was still a long time ago. It is very easy to take the most resistant path when you broke. I had a lot of work to do, but I had to be intentional about what was given every day to feel as if I was chosen as a intentional way. I told myself that I had a book I wanted to read, wanted to take a walk in my neighbor, or my parents wanted to help me cook dinner. Sometimes there is almost no daily structure in early recovery. I started to achieve something that gave me confidence and empowered me. I have set a long -term goal for myself or has a basic vision for my future, like a rudder on the sea of ??the sea.

It doesn’t mean that my dreams won’t happen because my dream didn’t happen immediately, and I didn’t think it would be at age. Sometimes I had to just be flexible about how my desire to fulfill my heart. Perhaps life can not be a cookie cutter or a linear, but real life takes a form in a way that surprises us and still achieves us. We dream ourselves and still want to live an important life for us.

Feel like an adult

In my opinion, being responsible for my life and ownership is how I feel like an adult. Despite the fact that there was an environmental trigger related to the reason why I couldn’t control, it was still my responsibility and it can only be done to me. It’s not my fault that all of this happens to me, but I can fix what happened to me and try to chart a new process for myself. Before thinking about going out, occupation, or other external status, you must lead the treatment first and restore your identity and self -esteem. We can be proud of the healing process we owned entirely.

Only we can focus on the present instead of taking medicine, being treated, brave, positive, and uncomfortable, and living and regretting in the past. We cannot wait to respect ourselves, life and recovery process only based on certain conditions or results. We are proud of who we are today and count every day, and we can intentionally do our way to live our lives. In this way, we will regain the driver’s seat in life.